Thursday, July 31, 2008

good morning

I'm sitting in the big conference room at the hotel, waiting for day three to start. For some reason I'm actually getting internet today (hooray!) so I figured I'd kill time by posting. I never really described what it's like here. I'm at the Hyatt in Century City, and the entire bottom floor of the hotel (with the conference rooms) is all the California bar. Which, incidentally, they call the "California bar semi-annual exam" which I think is them trying to make it sounds less scary. Something about that semi-annual makes it sound it's a good thing, like a semi-annual sale. LIARS!

Anyway, Chris estimates there's at least 1000 people taking the exam here, and I have absolutely no guess since I can't tell how many other than seeing that it's a ton of people. The proctors are all quite elderly, most of them very slow and incompetent. It's pretty frustrating. We're all sitting at long rows of folding tables, with power cords strung along every row so we can plug in our laptops (they have some testing centers which are handwriting only, and some that are for laptops. Handwriting would kill me). A few people have brought pillows, but I've yet to see a book stand, thank goodness.

Three essays and one performance test away from freedom! I can't wait.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Two down, one to go

Well, only one day left, thank God. I was thinking at lunch how happy I'd be if I knew I only had the afternoon left. So I'm very happy for all of my friends who are currently celebrating their freedom, but I also hate you all.

I forgot to mention yesterday that the guy I'm sitting next to (our seats are assigned) is actually the guy who took over my spot in the house we rented in DC last summer! We overlapped for a week so I got to know him a little bit, and he also is bff with one of my friends who I worked with. It's a small world. Also it's nice to have someone I kind of know to sit next to and make small talk with.

I'm so tired today. I can't wait to be done.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Day one is done

Twenty minutes to go during the morning part of the exam, and an earthquake hits! What are the odds. I think it's Chris' and my fault, seeing as we have a habit of having our exams interrupted.

In other news, one day down, two to go. I have no interest in going over what I wrote today, as far as I'm concerned it's over and done with and the next time I'm going to think about it is on November 21st, when the results come out. Well by then I probably won't even remember the questions, but either way, I am not one of those people who needs to rehash exams. That just stresses me out. Instead, I'm just going to think about how at least I'm getting closer to the end, finally!

It begins

I realized last night I left my phone charger in DC, even after I specifically unplugged it the morning of my flight, thinking how terrible it would be if I forgot it there! So now I'll have to be using the phone pretty minimally until I get to Liz's (on Friday), where I'm having Mike mail it.

In better news, I actually slept pretty well last night! I didn't start waking up until 5:30, and I don't think I dreamed about bar-related stuff. Amazing.

Well, here goes nothing! Let you know how it goes.

Monday, July 28, 2008

I think I'm done

It's after five, California time. I think I'm done studying. I've been half-assing it today, anywy. At this point, if I don't know it, I never will. And if I know it and I forget it because I didn't just refresh my memory about it (which reminds me of something from evidence!) well then, what can you do. I'll just hope I remember enough that the essay is mostly right. Mostly right is all I'm shooting for, anyway.

Now, I'm just not sure what to do with myself for the rest of the night! I got up early this morning (thank you, jet lag) in the hopes that I'll be able to sleep at a decent hour tonight, but given the fact that I haven't been able to sleep without thinking about bar stuff for the last three weeks, I'm not counting on it.

On the plus side, three days from now, I'm free! On the minus side, most of my friends will be done two days from now. Damn states that don't do a two-day exam.


Exactly 24 hours from now, I'll be starting the bar exam. This makes me very upset.

So I'm in LA, for the bar exam (that's the testing site I decided to do, luckily CA has a ton of options, unlike most states which just have one place for the everyone). If you're in LA and I haven't talked to you about getting together, it's because I'm busy freaking out about the exam for now, and unfortunately I'm leaving the morning after (Friday) to drive to the Bay Area because Friday night is the Cal Women's Huddle so I've got to leave town ASAP to get there. So, if you're in the Bay Area and want to hang out, or in LA and want to drive to the Bay Area this weekend, I'll be there!

Last night I was at a restaurant having dinner and it came up with the waitress that I'd just flown in from the east coast. She asked why, and I said I was in town to take the bar exam. For the first time ever, I had someone ask me, "what's the bar exam?" I explained that it was the exam you take to be a lawyer, and she asked me if it was hard, and if I have to study for it a lot, like for the SAT. Her exact words. I wasn't really sure how to reply to that, so I just told her that it was like the SAT times ten. Although really ten times zero is zero, but I didn't know how to clearly explain that my life has centered around this exam for the last two and a half months, so yes, it IS a hard exam, and you DO have to study a lot.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Quick update

Eventually got to DC late on Friday (thank you, unclear directions which did not make the fork between S Glebe and E Glebe!) but was finally out of the car by 11:30. Yesterday I found an apartment and put a deposit down on it, but it's only $200 so if I decide I don't want it, it's not a big deal. Now I'm up, getting ready to fly to LA. That's my last 36 hours. I'm definitely back into bar exam panic mode.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Tick tock

Sitting here waiting on my movers, who were supposed to be here between 1 and 3... Currently 40 minutes late, which I'm not pleased about since I'm driving to DC (about a four hour trip) after they leave.

Thursday, July 24, 2008


I have been packing all day. I knew I had several hours worth of work today to get ready to go, but I did not anticipate it taking all day! That means that I have done zero bar studying, and I'm kind of freaking out about it. Like, what if all the packing erased everything I've learned? And what if my brain forgot how to write an essay while I was taping up boxes? Nonsensical, perhaps. But this is my fear.

And, I've been so busy that I haven't gotten a chance to tell you all about my last step class! It was a nice goodbye, I'll just leave it at that for now.

Movers finally told me when they're coming, like two hours ago. Apparently they don't decide more than the night before the next day's schedule, that makes sense. But they'll be here between 1 and 3, and then I'm driving up to DC, so this is my last 24 hours in Durham! Surprisingly sad, I have to say. Those of us left in town are having dinner tonight one last time at one of the typical Durham places (Carolina Alehouse, for those of you who know), which should be fun. But then I have to come back and do a little bit of studying or my brain will explode from fear.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Things I'm allowed to bring into the bar exam

Silent analog watches and clocks not measuring any larger than 4" x 4", back supports, up to two pillows without cases, pens, pencils, erasers, paper clips, rulers, highlighters (for use on questions only), one book stand, one foot stool, one mouse pad, splints, inhalers, crutches, wheelchairs, casts, hearing aids, TENS units, eyeglasses, earplugs (must not be connected) or plastic material normally associated with the sport of swimming, medicine, feminine hygiene items and wallets.

Apparently a TENS unit is a device which produces electric impulses to help people suffering from arthritis. I had to google it. Also, if I'm next to someone who has a book stand, for pete's sake, I'm going to hope he fails. I don't even quite know what a book stand is since it's not like we bring in books with us.

Monday, July 21, 2008

And we're officially one week out

I heart crim law/procedure questions, and questions about mortgages. Well, as much as one can heart any bar exam questions. I've been doing old bar exam essays, from the last few sittings, and my dream essay question was on the February 07 exam. I'm so sad since that means we won't have it now. Also, the sample essay they had as "one of the best in the state" for that question was total crap, which gives me hope. (Seriously, the guy kept talking about "malice afterthought." Cracked me up.)

Mortgages I know thanks to my real estate finance class this past semester. It was the one that began at 7:55 on Mondays, but not only did that give me my three-day weeks, it totally taught me mortgages, which according to PMBR is the most heavily tested property subject. So hooray for real estate finance!

Speaking of classes, I'm still waiting on my grade for one class. Keep in my last final exam was May 1, and grades were already due at the ridiculously late date of June 16. So yeah, this guy is taking over two and a half months to grade 32 exams. Awesome fella.

Movers come Friday...and I can't believe I'm really leaving Durham this weekend. Probably on Friday, actually, unless the movers come super late. I can't believe it's already been three years! I'm going to miss it, we've had a lot of good times.

Saturday, July 19, 2008


It's sad when the only reason you realize it's a weekend is because the few blogs you actually keep up with aren't updated, and then you remember it's because those people aren't actually working today. Part of me is still freaking out that I only have just over a week now to be ready for the exam, but another part of me is so tired, it'll be a relief to just have it over and done with already.

Just in time

I finally finished my second quilt! It's been sitting almost done in my closet for weeks, I just haven't had much time to work on it (as you might have guessed). But finally it's done. It's still not a full-sized bed quilt, but it's bigger than the last one, and you could actually use it as a lap blanket, so it'll be useful to someone other than Jamie. Here are some delightful pictures for you (aka mostly for my mom).

Friday, July 18, 2008

Very important advice

Password needs to get some better celebrities. And by better I don't mean more famous, I just mean people who are even sort of smart. I'm sure no one on earth is watching this except for me (and in my defense, I only set my DVR for it because NPH was on the first episode, and since then I've just kept on recording them because it's summer and there's nothing else to watch), but if you see some of these people, they're just terrible. Like Steve Schirripa. Embarassingly bad, he couldn't even help the girl get 5 out of 9 passwords, so she went home with nothing. It doesn't matter how good you are if you're paired with a moron!

Thursday, July 17, 2008


How the hell is this a movie?? I find its existence upsetting.

It never ends

It's funny, I was worried that when we hit crunch time for studying, I wouldn't have the attention span to study more than five or six hours a day. But apparently, that's not a problem for me. I see how people can become workaholics now, there's just always more waiting to be done. And while that never got me motivated to work 24/7 before, now the terrible feeling I have that I totally suck and am going to fail the bar has taken care of that for me.

Do me a favor, promise me (in your heads) that if I fail the bar you won't judge me?

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

You don't have to tell me this is sad, I already know

In my kickboxing class, the instructor frequently tells us to look in the mirror when we're punching etc so we can imagine an opponent of the same size and aim for the face or throat or whatever it is we're supposed to be hurting. Today at the start of class, as I was punching at my face, I started thinking to myself, oh yeah mirror self, you're in apprehension of an immediate battery! I just assaulted you!

Sunday, July 13, 2008

The last of these

Since I went through the trouble of saving these to my desktop and all, I figured I might as well post the last of my favorites.

Also, Brett Favre, don't make me hate you. Stay retired, and let Aaron Rogers have his chance to be the starter. Brett seems like a nice guy and all, but I hate it when people keep switching back and forth what they want to do. You finally chose to retire, just enjoy it! Also, I see that you once knew how to shave, so why don't you try that again, huh?

Saturday, July 12, 2008

My schedule for today

Get up
Memorize part I of my contracts outline
Outline half of community property
Memorize part II of my contracts outline
Outline second half of community property
Run errands/pack a box
Memorize part III of my contracts outline
Outline some essays
Memorize part IV of my contracts outline
Outline essays

So far I'm at "memorize part III" so I'm moving on schedule pretty well. Except I really wish I was done for the day and not just at the halfway point. On the plus side, I'm finding it much easier to get stuff done when I do it in shorter bursts instead of three or four hours of the same thing at a time.

And now I have to stop procrastinating and get on that part III. Whee.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Clock winding down = brain melting

We had yesterday off from barbri lecture (not off of work, of course, just no lecture) and so all day today I've been thinking it's Monday. It's really thrown me off! Luckily though it's Friday, so I can spend all day at home tomorrow doing work, instead of all day at school doing work. I had the start of a minor meltdown yesterday, but I think it was mostly brought on by being super tired and lots of memorizing. However, the movers are coming two weeks from today, I still only have three boxes packed, and the bar exam is in 18 days, so I don't have time for a meltdown!!

Did you know that you have a constructive breaking and entering when you obtain entry into a home through fraud, intimidation, or via the chimney? Some of these common law rules are so strange.

Thursday, July 10, 2008


I don't know what's wrong with me, but this whole week I've been unable to sleep, even though I'm super tired. My brain just will not shut off, which is a problem I used to have a lot when I was little, but has mostly gone away since college. And I'm having lots of dreams and I keep waking up, so I've been exhausted all week and I can't take it any more! This better stop before the bar exam, I can't be tired for the next two and a half weeks.

This girl in front of me in barbri has a habit of not paying attention all the time in the lectures, which is probably not the smartest thing in the world. Yesterday she had her computer out (probably a bad idea...they give us a workbook to take notes in so you really don't need your computer, I don't even bring mine to school to avoid temptation), and what was she doing? Reading an article entitled "Herbal Remedies--Boost Your Brain" and comparing a vitamin bottle she had with her with what she saw on the article. Seems like paying attention for class would have been the best way to boost her brain, but maybe it's just me.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

The End of an Era

Well, tonight was our last night of trivia at The Tav. We have only gone a few times all summer, for obvious reasons, and we figured that tonight would be our last night since exactly three weeks from today, we'll be done with day one of the bar exam (kill me now, that makes me want to puke. The fact that we have fewer than three weeks left, not the being 1/3 done part). But what a way to go out--we won our very last game ever! We even had a lame-o law related name (easement appurtenant plus one--since there were three of us), PLUS they had a "pop culture from this week" category, which we rocked. It was a perfect way to end it.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Best idea I've heard in a while

Andy, I completely agree with you, and couldn't hope more that you're right (as long as it happens that way in CA too!). I'd be willing to lie to everyone I know who hasn't taken the bar and pretend that it was a real exam, no problem. In fact, I'd even make up extra sections that weren't on it just to make it sounds even harder. Like, the part where they give you a box of machine parts and you have to create a spring gun, and then explain why it would be illegal to set it up in your garage to protect your family heirlooms that you keep out there from the pesky neighborhood thieves. Man, that would be kind of awesome. Way better than our version of a "practical test" where you get a case file and a law library and have to write memos and crap like that.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

I do love history, after all

I got to celebrate the Fourth of July just like our Founding Fathers...without electricity! Right as we were getting to leave to see the fireworks a huge storm rolled into Durham, so we had to nix those plans, and not ten minutes later the power went out. Well, normally the power flickers in my place all the time, it usually goes out just for a second or two (long enough so I have to reset my clock and end up messing that up so I oversleep), but this time it stayed out for six hours. So I got to take a shower by candlelight, and read in bed by candlelight, and hope that all the food in my fridge wouldn't go bad (it didn't, not to worry). It's a good thing I'm a girl and have a bunch of candles. Plus two flashlights that I've been keeping at the ready for just such an event for the last three years! I love being prepared.

I've packed three whole boxes now in anticipation of the movers coming in less than three weeks. In my defense, they're big boxes, and I've also gotten rid of a bunch of stuff too, so it's really more than that. But you can't even tell looking around my room because I've just got so much stuff in general. It's worrying me. That plus the bar exam being in three weeks and one day. I panic in my head, and yet I'm not sure how to turn that into really productive studying. It's a conundrum.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Back to biographies

It's July, and I think I'm officially freaking out in my head now, because it's less than four weeks away. Four weeks away from you being free from hearing me freak out too, so I realize it might be a happier deadline for you. And as soon as it's over, there will be many good times...I get to spend a week in CA with my undergrad friends, and even get to attend a Cal football event! And then I go to Montana to be with Duke Law friends for a wedding. So I see so much happy starting August first, but getting there is scaring the crap out of me.

In other news, I've been reading this series of books about this lawyer in Oklahoma since I high school I think, and I'm finally done with it. It's about a defense attorney, and at first the books were good because it was full of investigation into who the real killers were, etc etc. But lately they've become super preachy and all about whatever issues the author is so concerned about, and I just finished one of his most recent, and it was just awful. It was one giant sermon, with now exciting case at all! He kind of faked it for a while, but it was more of a distraction to the real story than anything else, and I've decided I'm just done with him. So William Bernhardt, we are through! No more time will I waste on you.